As I write this letter, you have been gone for five days. In those five days, I have been unable to cry over your passing. I believe this is due to my conflicting feelings about you from over the years I knew you. You came into my life about 24 years ago when i was either six or going on six years old. Before I say what I want to say, I would like to thank you for your help in bringing my sister Jessica into the world and being a soulmate for my mom. My feelings for you have ranged from completely hating you to feeling indifferent when it comes to you. We barely agreed on anything and rarely got along. However, I have to thank you for helping to make me the man that I am today. I’m not going to get into the nitty gritty of why I’ve had the feelings I have had for you. You, myself, and our families know the reasons. In the course of writing this letter (while wearing one of your t-shirts, lol), I’ve finally been able to cry. I think it took putting these words to the page for me to finally start grieving for you. I want you to know that I am gonna rise to the occasion and I will take care of my mom and Jessica as much as I can or I will die trying. Joel I can honestly say that after everything that has happened in the last 24 years, that I will miss you. Rest in peace and give Velcro a big hug for me.
Love your stepson,